mood when 3.45am

Midnight !

3.45am * tik tok tik tok *

a very peacefull night

a very cold weather night

Alone sitting infront of my lappy

Do look at Facebook suddenly

Emo come again

Just a 1 way to release my feeling is

spamming back my wall

or

blogging !

Many of you doenst know the real story

you might know my name who call Akira

but

you wont know my full story ! !

Heart is bleeding ,

mind is miserable..

and i do think of her

=====================================

you wont know the feeling

if you know it why you wanted to do it ?

not you choice ? then what the reason ?

Did you know ,

when i passby your home , i think of you

when i go some where else , its make me think of memory too

i dont know what will happen tomorrow

i just know i will appreciate the time be with you

You know im silly , childish, naive n like to play ..

you also can accept all this ..

but

why ?

Am i wrong ?

am i wrong giving you a little bit of present ?

am i wrong cos im too childish ?

I know i'm not handsome like aaron yan

i know i'm not rich like David beckham

I just could know ,

i have a heart is sincerely for you

aint that better ?

Im TB ,

everyone could know it

They respect me, i respect them

im nothing too

but if they dont , i wont give them a damn too !!

I still remember what you have told me

You wanted me to learn chinese

Finally i try my best

Conclusion from friend

they said ; ' your chinese improve alot '

I learn it because of you

:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:

我真的好累好累哦

不知道最近的我怎么了

满脑子都是你的画面

说好要遗忘的可是做不到''

说好不要再去回想从前的''

可是不知道为什么脑袋里一直有着你的回忆''

不知道为什么现在的我1碰到你''

本来心情不好的也会突然之间笑了''

心情好却变得不好''

现在的我自己也不认识自己了''

有些话想对你说可是不能说出口只好藏在心里

看到你幸福和快乐

自己也勉强快乐

希望你是真的幸福

我只害怕 你离开我

我只害怕 你不爱我

我只害怕 你冷落我

我只害怕 你不在乎我、

如果你爱我，请不要离开我....

Midnight !

3.45am * tik tok tik tok *

a very peacefull night

a very cold weather night

Alone sitting infront of my lappy

Do look at Facebook suddenly

Emo come again

Just a 1 way to release my feeling is

spamming back my wall

or

blogging !

Many of you doenst know the real story

you might know my name who call Akira

but

you wont know my full story ! !

Heart is bleeding ,

mind is miserable..

and i do think of her

=====================================

you wont know the feeling

if you know it why you wanted to do it ?

not you choice ? then what the reason ?

Did you know ,

when i passby your home , i think of you

when i go some where else , its make me think of memory too

i dont know what will happen tomorrow

i just know i will appreciate the time be with you

You know im silly , childish, naive n like to play ..

you also can accept all this ..

but

why ?

Am i wrong ?

am i wrong giving you a little bit of present ?

am i wrong cos im too childish ?

I know i'm not handsome like aaron yan

i know i'm not rich like David beckham

I just could know ,

i have a heart is sincerely for you

aint that better ?

Im TB ,

everyone could know it

They respect me, i respect them

im nothing too

but if they dont , i wont give them a damn too !!

I still remember what you have told me

You wanted me to learn chinese

Finally i try my best

Conclusion from friend

they said ; ' your chinese improve alot '

I learn it because of you

:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:

我真的好累好累哦

不知道最近的我怎么了

满脑子都是你的画面

说好要遗忘的可是做不到''

说好不要再去回想从前的''

可是不知道为什么脑袋里一直有着你的回忆''

不知道为什么现在的我1碰到你''

本来心情不好的也会突然之间笑了''

心情好却变得不好''

现在的我自己也不认识自己了''

有些话想对你说可是不能说出口只好藏在心里

看到你幸福和快乐

自己也勉强快乐

希望你是真的幸福

我只害怕 你离开我

我只害怕 你不爱我

我只害怕 你冷落我

我只害怕 你不在乎我、

如果你爱我，请不要离开我....

Midnight !

3.10am * tik tok tik tok *

a very peacefull night

a very cold weather night

Alone sitting infront of my lappy

Do look at Facebook suddenly

Emo come again

Just a 1 way to release my feeling is

spamming back my wall

or

blogging !

Many of you doenst know the real story

you might know my name who call Akira

but

you wont know my full story ! !

Heart is bleeding ,

mind is miserable..

and i do think of her

=====================================

you wont know the feeling

if you know it why you wanted to do it ?

not you choice ? then what the reason ?

Did you know ,

when i passby your home , i think of you

when i go some where else , its make me think of memory too

i dont know what will happen tomorrow

i just know i will appreciate the time be with you

You know im silly , childish, naive n like to play ..

you also can accept all this ..

but

why ?

Am i wrong ?

am i wrong giving you a little bit of present ?

am i wrong cos im too childish ?

I know i'm not handsome like aaron yan

i know i'm not rich like David beckham

I just could know ,

i have a heart is sincerely for you

aint that better ?

Im TB ,

everyone could know it

They respect me, i respect them

im nothing too

but if they dont , i wont give them a damn too !!

I still remember what you have told me

You wanted me to learn chinese

Finally i try my best

Conclusion from friend

they said ; ' your chinese improve alot '

I learn it because of you

:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:

我真的好累好累哦

不知道最近的我怎么了

满脑子都是你的画面

说好要遗忘的可是做不到''

说好不要再去回想从前的''

可是不知道为什么脑袋里一直有着你的回忆''

不知道为什么现在的我1碰到你''

本来心情不好的也会突然之间笑了''

心情好却变得不好''

现在的我自己也不认识自己了''

有些话想对你说可是不能说出口只好藏在心里

看到你幸福和快乐

自己也勉强快乐

希望你是真的幸福

我只害怕 你离开我

我只害怕 你不爱我

我只害怕 你冷落我

我只害怕 你不在乎我、

如果你爱我，请不要离开我....

cannot lie akira..

I cannot lie my ownself

why you become like my 1st ex ? =(

i still love you

everyone of you include you also told me that i will find a better one

do you think that im such a player that always keep find a new 1 after break up ?

is that not call a playboy ?

and i know this world got so many human ..

From the day we start together

we already fight for so many problem

We still can fight for it..

but now

everything is just dissapear like that ..

Love can be so beautiful , but when its end up is like going to hell

Love is so sweet when the coffee is added by sugar

did you know i love you like hell?

and i know how i going to shout , write or watever else ,

you wont come back to me ..

but really

I LOVE YOU ..

Everything is over n gone

This is the time really make me HURT alot ..

And i sick right now

Still wanted to gave me a big SURPRISED ..

Time showing is 1.10am and you are searching me around

I still blurring and ask what happen you cry .

You just end the call and text me

Izzit very easy for you to say a sorry to end all this ?

but did you know when you say it out , is hurt me like hella !

And i was crying for whole night

hand shaking somemore, i dint make a joke !

you can ask ying yi . , she know everything ..

I never scold you, i never angry for such a long time ..

2 month you purposely dint bother me at all

And i trying to help you in every way that you hard to face it

and i know you less friend and i still ask ppl chat more with you

did you know all that ?

you dont know everything , you just know that i wanna harm you.

you wont know all the things from me ..

i remember what did you have said to me ..

but all is invisible

you wont see the pain .

you wont know .

I still love you .

really i love you .

Girl ,

Did you knw when i truely love you , and cant live without you,

and you leave me like that ..

I often close my eyes

And I can see you smile

You reach out for my hand

And I'm woken from my dream

Although your heart is mine

It's hollow inside

I never had your love

And I never will

And every night

I lie awake

Thinking maybe you love me

Like I've always loved you

But how can you love me

Like I loved you when

You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way

To be so in love

To have someone there

Yet feel so alone

Aren't you supposed to be

The one to wipe my tears

The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still

My reflection is there

I see you holding me

But then you disappear

All that is left of you

Is a memory

On that only, exists in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you

But I can feel it too

And it just hurts so much

To know that I can't do a thing

And deep down in my heart

Somehow I just know

That no matter what

I'll always love you

bad habit ╮(╯_╰)╭

sitting alone , facing to my lappy

Suddenly do think of someone ..

Silently have think of you

I do look your picture from everywhere that i save

what am i thinking ?

Am i stupid ?

Yeah , i admit it

Cos i love you ..

i know you wont see my stupid blog

i know you wont ever come my stupid wall

even i like or comment you wont feel the way

maybe this is my bad habit do look your wall ,

maybe this is my bad habit do see your picture ,

maybe this is my bad habit do see your things ,

I could remember every single thing you said ,

sorry if you feel annoying

sorry if you feel bored

sorry if you doesnt like it

sorry cos i love you

sorry cos i miss you

this is the only way that i can release my feeling at here.

i hope Akira will be okays

why i need to care so much for a girl that doesnt care for me

is because

you already in my heart

Nowadays, is really bored

bored until i couldnt count it

making something crazy !

* click to enlarge *

this is what i do in 1 of my groupie ..! ╮(╯_╰)╭

Because i really bored

No 1 chat with me

No 1 entertain with me

But

there always have people thought that got alot of ppl chat v me ╮(╯_╰)╭

there is no 1 !

okays ?!!

Seriuosly

akira sick !

Finally akira not feeling well

i thought how strong akira is

but akira sick

Akira just could pretend nothing happen on it

Pray for akira okays ?

Akira need sayang & love from Friends ..

Cheer her up ...

thanks everyone helping me to cheer her

对不起 我又想你了

对不起

我又想你了

就这么静静地想你……

想知道你在做什么

想知道你有没有在想我

想知道当你凝视远方的时候

你的眼前是否划过我的身影?

就这么静静地想你……

在这个平淡的夜晚

因为想起了你

这个夜晚变得美丽而忧郁

静静地想着你

我祈求

祈求这一刻的宁静、永恒

我喜欢这样想你

让自己的心

有了柔柔的疼痛和幸福的甜蜜

不经意间

我会静静地想你的名字

想那幽幽月华下的幽幽相思

很多时候

就这样静静地想一个人

其实也是一种幸福、一种期冀

前世的五百次回眸

才换来今生的擦肩而过

我会用一万次回眸

换取与你的一次相遇

再用我如花云的心

柔柔的疼你

在某个遥远的地方

对不起

我违约又在静静的想你了

你在忙些什么?

茶淡了

头上的汗也清凉了

让自己坐下来

静静的想你好了

想知道当你走进甜美的梦乡

是否看到我在梦的路口等你?

开始喜欢静静地坐在这儿想你

虽然

我不知道这样想你

你是否能真切地感受到

如果你常常会有一种莫名的心动

你是否会想到那是因为我在想你

一直以来我随时都会想起你

有的时候思念就像正在涨潮的大海

一波高过一波

绵延不绝

无论我在世界哪个角落

无论我在做什么

我都会如此剧烈的想你

那是一种巨大的孤独

因为我爱的你不在我身边

我曾经尝试着每天不再那么想你

此刻我才发现

原来想你已成一种习惯

戒不了想你

戒不了心疼你

说好了要少想你的

可是不知道为何又想起了你

对不起……

我还是想你了
...

如果你生气我、请你骂我、但请不要不理我

按着你的号码

终于还是按下了绿色的按钮

看着手机却没有勇气

直接把手机放在耳边

虽然已经呼叫

但自己心中其实已经知道答案

因为手机里头所发出来的声音

不会是你的声音

而是“你所呼叫的用户已暂时停机，请稍后再试！”

有时候

也不知道自己到底是做错了什么

竟然可以让你生气得

连电话也给关机了

心中的那股不安

你永远也感受不到

因为关机的那人是你

等待的那人却是我

找不到你

心中就开始胡思乱想了

多害怕

你从此都不再

接起我的来电了

多害怕

从此我们的关系

就是没有任何关系

多害怕

我们的爱情

就这样无声地结束了

或许你是真的觉得我好烦吧

但我只想关心你

或许是我用错了方式来爱你

但我却是真心的

或许你不能够体会我的心情

但我却不曾怪你

或许我是真的错了

但我真的只是爱你

唯一的错

就是我爱上了你

然后放不下你

要找你嘛

却怕你烦

不找你嘛

却自己烦...

我的手机

永远都因为你而开机

你的手机

永远都因为我而关机

只要有争执

只要你觉得不开心

只要你觉得我很烦

我就一定找不到你了

你以为这样就能减少彼此的摩擦

但你不知道

在另一端的世界里

有个人等你等得快要疯掉了

他不怕你吵

他不怕你骂

他不怕低声下气来向你认错

他最怕的就是你突然不要理他了

那种不安才是残忍的惩罚...

如果你想要静一静

你可以和我说

我不会打扰你

如果你觉得我很烦

你可以和我说

我会忍着不找你

如果你觉得很生气

你可以骂我

但请你不要不理我...

Sorry

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this is my feeling

all is wanted to release my feeling here

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